Scott Alan

So I'm annoyed and excited at the same time. Chris, the boy I've been talking to for a couple weeks now is still in New York for quite awhile. I seriously can't wait for him to come back so I can actually see and touch him in person... that sounds bad. oh well. He is so cool. Hurry up Chris, geez. Not to mention, this boy bought me an awesome jacket/hoodie, I haven't actually seen it, but he described it to me and it sounds like the jacket I've been searching for. I'm so happy. As for other news. I'm a freakin' pig. I walked my ass to Albertsons today with my $4 in change and bought 8 cinnamon rolls, 4 cream cheese frosting ones, and 4 maple frosting rolls. I've already eaten 5! I would happily eat the last 3 if I wasn't saving them for tomorrow. sooo good. I love cinnamon rolls. Tomorrow I'm turning in a bunch of applications to places, same ol same ol. I've been doing this for about 3 months now. I'm talking to a manager for sure tomorrow though. Hopefully I can convince her to hire me! I really hope so. Even though it's a Jamba Juice wanna be place. I NEED Money! I'm so broke, and I'm gonna be homeless if I can't get a job by the 1st. Cross your fingers for me! I wouldn't mind working there anyways, FREE drinks. I loved that perk when I worked at Starbucks. Plus it's across the street from my house. Yay, no use of my car = no use of gas! = no chance of getting arrested if no driving happens. So Saturday, my sister is coming back home from Sacramento. And with my sister is coming my 7 year old niece. She has been at my moms for about a month and a half. It's been nice to not have a child around, don't get me wrong, I love the brat, but it's just been nice not having to be soo... G-Rated. haha. Also... something a little upsetting. My two best friends don't talk to eachother anymore. Gonna make it hard to invite the two of them to functions now. Not sure what's going to happen between the two of them. I'm hoping with some time things will cool between the two and we can all be a happy gay fam-damnly again. maybe I'll do a video tomorrow, see how I feel.

What's in your bag?

So I thought up my next tattoo. Well, next 2. Since in the future I plan on getting my mom and sisters birthstones on the backs of my hands, on the arm that my moms birthstone is going to be on, I'm getting two picture from the book "The Giving Tree". On the top of my wrist, I'm getting the old man sitting on the tree stump, and on the inside of my forearm, the picture of the boy climbing the tree. I can't wait. Everytime I see this book, my first thought are for my mom, she would basically do Anything for my sister and I and so these tattoos would represent her perfectly.

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So just got home from the tattoo shop so my sister could get a dove on her ankle. And guess what!?!?!?! I'm getting my tattoos tomorrow!!!! yay!

So I was gonna vlog, but like Tally yesterday, my mom put me in a horrible mood and now I'm not looking too good. Everytime I talk to her she always tells me how I'm feeling, I'm so fed up with it. I sorta yelled at her telling her that just because she says I'm depressed, or sad, or mad, or that something is wrong, Doesn't mean it's true. She lives 600 Miles away! how could she know whats going on, or how I feel. In fact, despite the fact that I'm flat broke, actually... in debt, I haven't had a full meal in who knows how long, and I'm feeling like I need a man more and more everyday, I'm pretty damn happy. except right now. grrrr. mom, Love ya, But butt out!

So my sister and I have a new room mate. His names Todd. He's pretty cool. We all like to hang out and check out pictures of his life... here, take a look.

Here's one of him kickin the ball around with snoop.

And from his scuba trip.

From when he was a pimp in the big city.

Skydiving over the Grand Canyon.

And some of his friends.

Here's Bunny with Sir Hefner

And his cousin Timothy with buddy Kid Rock.

I know, Your probably jealous that I get to live with this guy and your not. But you can always add him on Myspace.

that's all....

If you're interested in reading what I have to say, Check out my Blog at Uber!I write in it almost daily, if not twice a day.

so i have an interview today to become an art distributor, basically an art salesman! how awesome, i love art, and i can sell the crap out of anything. ::cross your fingers:: i really hope this all goes well.

So I just quit my job a couple days ago and have no urge to go back into the corporate world, I'm lost. I have no idea where to start looking for jobs, I've done the coffee shop thing, that's over with; and I've been in a call center, never again. I even used to be a hair stylist in California, I'm tired of it. What's next for me. I wish I could live off of my art.. you know, become one of the millions of starving artist just trying to get by. Any suggestions?

it's so strange to think that i'll be living in another state in less than 2 days! I'm sorta nervous about it, and i'm still not even close to being done with my packing, i kept putting it off and now i'm rushing to get it done. I needed a break from the disaster that is my room.

So not a whole lot happened today, but my best friend/husband/soon to be room mate call ed and told me that we got the house we applied for!!! SO EXCITED!

WOOO! this is me sitting at home with not much to do. i can't wait to move to portland! My best friend and i are gonna get ourselves a place and rock the shit outta P-town. talk about photoshoots, music, and parties!! well, maybe not too many parties, but none the less, A freakin' good time, all the time. that's gonna be one of my main motto's i'm adopting as of this moment. anyways, talk about a random journal. Tell me what's going on in your lives! I know you can do it.

 

<my soon to be room mate!! can't wait!>

 

do it.

so today was interesting, i found an old shirt that i used to love, and now realized, it's way too big.... another thing on the alteration pile. and then my allergies seemed to explode today. i left work early and went home and watched oprah. they showed this thing called a NETI POT. basicall a little genie lamp/ teapot. and you use it to flush out your sinus's. so i found a teapot in my house and made up the mixture of salt and warm water to try it... the water would not flow from one nostril to the other like it's supposed to, so i'm not quite sure if the pot just doesn't work for it, or if my nose has some serious issues? did anyone see this today, or have you tried a neti pot?

So. It's really getting a lot easier to not smoke. i mean, of course i'm always thinking about it, but it's not bad. today my sister and i moved a new couch into my moms apartment, let me tell you, Or-deal. massive pain in the butt. we had to balance the couch over the second story balcony to turn it to fit it through the front door, we almost lost it. then my sister used herself to stop the couch from smashing some things in the house.... but it was totally worth it to lay on it the rest of the day and watch Heroes.

Which reminds me, What did you all think. I was slightly disappointed, i expected more from this episode(.07%), but the next looks like it'll make up for it. opinions, thoughts, whatever?

So today is 4:20... tell me about it. i've seen so much stuff that is pot related in the past 4 days, i'm not sure if maybe i'm noticing it now that i want it, or because its decided to taunt me now that i've stopped. today i had mass amounts of my old pot buddies call me up inviting me to parties or to just hang out, so i've locked myself in my house. Help! hopefully this gets easier.

so today is officailly my first day without smoking.... i won't say what i was smoking, but i'm sure you can guess now. not bad so far, i give it 4 more days until it's hard.

So last night was really depressing... we got a phone call from my sister and my mom answered it. all we could hear was this loud screaming coming from the other end, we thought she was laughing. When we finally realized that she was histerically crying, we of course wondered what was wrong and had to calm her down. She told us one of her dogs was dead. Been killed. So we rushed out to her house to find him in the back yard. he had some bald patches where the fur was completely gone, and a tiny puncture on his throat. and all 4 armpits where bleeding. Her roomate said that she looked over the back fence and saw a bloody golden retriever and two teenagers on bikes riding down the street, and when she yelled to ask if it was their dog, they waited till they were safely away from us to yell back "Yes." but they kept on going, we don't know where the dog went or the kids either, but we are all pretty devestated now. I feel really bad for my sisters other dog because it was his brother, now he's really down and not hyper in anyway, exact opposite of his usual demeanor.

I was wondering if you have ever heard of the bleeding from all armpits and what causes it?

So my best friend, the one that got engaged in disneyland, came up from san fransisco to visit friends and family and she asked me if i'd be a brides maid! i'm excited, not that i'm wearing a dress or anything, i guess she wants me to wear a tux that matches whatever the brides maids dress is. i said i didn't care what i was wearing as long as i was there, i told her i secretely hoped she'd make me wear one of the tuxes from dumb and dumber, either baby blue or orange, cane and top hat to boot!

i got in an accident today. rear-ended someone... right after a turn through an intersection, so at least we were going around 10mph so we just scraped bumpers... but still annoying.

so last night as i was going to bed, i did my usual routine, you know, brush my teeth, wash my face.... and i noticed the back of my earring came off, which is clear. and it's the size of a bb. then i noticed the blue jewel in my nosering was missing... i guess i have to go shopping to get a new one, oh darn, right. anyways, i gotta head off to work now.

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